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Today I was reflecting, and I realized it has been a long time.

It has been a long time since I picked up the computer, and placed my fingers on the keys,and wrote from my heart.

So many justifiable things have gotten in the way. Life. Family. Work. The list could go on and on. But I am learning as I go through life that writing, for me is like therapy. It is a rare opportunity to share the hidden parts of my heart. To pour out, what I believe God may be sharing with me, and hope that it blesses you. So today as I reflected I not only realized the length of time that it has been since I blogged, but it has been a long time since I saw myself, or my life in a negative light.

In a moment of transparency, I will share, that for many years I struggled to think about myself, the way God thinks about me.

It was a daily fight to the death to look at myself and see what he sees. Now, please do not get me wrong, I still have my fleeting moments. Long days, tough assignments, and life in general can sometimes attempt to rain down a monsoon of negativity. However, I remember a time and a day, where the monsoon would have become my comfort zone. I can remember the day that I would have held fast to every negative thought. I would have added to this tirade of negativity by reminding myself of all that I was not (or thought I was not) instead of all that I was, am and was destined to be.  By living in that place, I was a walking, ticking time bomb. My stinking thinking, was the undercurrent that was secretly at work within me, running my life. This deeply buried, negative thought life, pushed me to constantly seek validation externally. I was completely incapable of seeing as God saw, thinking like God thought, and therefore impeded from living as God promised I could live.

I was my own worst enemy, short changing myself regularly, by paying the valuable currency of attention to my detrimental thoughts.

Today, I write to you from a different perspective, the perspective of a changed mindset. I remember hearing a question and answer that woke me up from this slumber of negativity. This question was: “What is the one thing that you can change, that if you change it, it will change everything?” The answer is: “Your MIND.” EUREAKA! I’d spent the better part of my life reading and rehearsing, as a man thinketh in his heart, so is he. I’d convinced others that I believed this. But in my gut, I was as unconvinced of this fact as they come. Besides, I’d tricked myself into compartmentalizing my thought life.

Example: Well I think really good thoughts here, so I am ok and so is my thought life.

Reality: NO! Negativity, wrong thinking is a cancer. If it is in one part of your thought life, it will not be long before it spreads, takes hold and completely debilitates you.  

Today, I am happy to report that it has been a long time since I believed the lies that myself and the enemy told me.

It has been a long time since I allowed a relationship, an event, a place, a station in life to make me see myself as a failure.

Today, I am able  to grab these fleeting thoughts and lead them away into captivity under the obedience of Christ, before they take root. I am able to make clear lines of distinction, such as: I may have failed at something, but I AM not a failure.

I am able to view things like failure, loss, and hurt differently. When you change the way you look at things, the way you look at things change. How do we get to this place? We arrive here, through daily mind renewal. Our minds really are a battlefield. We are attacked here first because all decisive action, good, bad or indifferent was first a thought. If we can master mental change first, we can then execute the change outwardly. Spend time in your word daily. Time with God is ALWAYS time well spent.

Reading what he says about you, being alone in his presence and hearing the creator of the Universe tell you: “You are beautiful.”

“I know ALL about you and I love you anyway.” “I am jealous for you.” ” I know the plans I have for you.” ” You are forgiven.” “You are redeemed.” “You are loved.” “No weapon formed against you shall prosper.” ” My promises to you are YES and amen.” “I will be  with you always, even until the end of the world.” “You are  the standard, that I will lift up, when the enemy comes in like a flood.” ” I gave my son for you, because I am mad about you.” “Nothing can separate you from my love.” ” You are more than a conqueror, everything a conqueror is, you are MORE than that!”

YOWZERS! Talk about a spiritual B12 shot, He infuses you with His thoughts concerning you, and when we meditate in this place, there is NO room for self condemnation, low self-esteem or negative self-talk. Commit to yourself to begin changing your life today, by finding out and embracing what God says about you, internalizing those thoughts/promises, confessing those things over yourself and walking in the victory that will abound.

Philippians 4:8  MSG 8-9 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Peace & Blessings

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