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You know who they are. They are the ones who lurk in the corners of your conversation and scoff at your dreams. You know the type that project their inability to make something happen onto you, and your vision. The modern day term for them is ‘haters’, back in the day they called them ‘naysayers’ , but you get the my drift.

These people are the dream killers, destiny thieves and glass half- emptiers of the world. ( yes, I made that up) It seems as though they were born for no other reason than to oppose your success and make idle talk of your innovation. I know you know the type, the ones that are always complaining about the doers who are busy doing while assaulting your ears, time and patience with a litany of  excuses for why they can’t do. Yet, everything you do in their eyes is wrong and doomed to a life of undeniable failure.

We hate to see them coming. We make full-on hard stops that careen into U-turns in the middle of office corridors to get away from them. We see their number dance onto our caller ID and its as if we hear an alarm ringing to warn us of the impending negativity on the other end of the line. Nope, not today–to voicemail you go Deb, because after all you’re a downer.

Trust and believe, I know your plight. I, too, loathe the pigpen cloud of negativity that follows this breed. However, I think they get a bad rap.

Yes, I said it. The Negative Nancy’s of the world get an extremely bad rap–you see, without them there’d be no negative with your positive. No yang to your yin.

As despicable as their demeanors can appear, their demeanor drives us. I don’t know about you, but the fastest way to watch me accomplish a task and then some is to doubt my ability to do it. Throw some shade my way and I am all over it and fast. Am I saying I need negativity before I’ll make a move, of course not.

What I am asserting is this, negativity presented to the right person is nothing more than much needed fuel to the fire. So to all the naysayers, doubters, heartbreakers and the like, this is for you….

Thank you for believing in my dreams and my visions enough to attempt to dismantle them with your negative energy. I must be on to something grand if all you can do is proclaim all the reasons why it cannot work. Thank you, naysayer, for expending the energy I would have used to try and talk myself out of making this huge leap of faith! Now I can use that energy to drive aggressively toward my goal, mainly because, I know I can and secondarily to prove you wrong.

Naysayer, I appreciate your attention to detail as you shared with the masses, all the ways that I could and would fail. It will make victory all the more sweeter when I come out on top. Thank you for whispering, gossiping, and nitpicking and while I wish for your own sakes, that you’d find another hobby–I’m glad you’re here.

You are far more important to the ascent of my career and my positioning for purpose than I could have ever realized. I am grateful for your inability to move past my past because every time you held it over my head, I was reminded that I no longer live there. Cheers to you, oh beautiful naysayer, for every time you attempted to intercept my purpose with some great fear of failure or apprehension of success, it simply made me see that I am on the path to something significant and life changing!

Thank you for being you and serving your purpose. Without you I’d never know what it is to pull a knife from my back and be healed and compelled to forgive the attempted butcher of my promise, because you know not what you do.

See, without you, I don’t think I’d have this strong of a prayer life. Some of your words, gestures and thoughts were so cruel they knocked me to my knees. Sure, that is exactly what you’d hoped to accomplish, but you had no idea that I’d be meeting Abba there. In in our meeting he dried my tears, gave me direction and lavished me with compassion, for you.

I truly thank you with my whole being, for shattering my dreams, annihilating my hopes and wasting the contents of my heart like cheap perfume, when I least expected it. It is because of you, that I learned how resilient I am and how much more effective love is when it comes from a heart that was broken and allowed itself to experience the process of being fully healed.

You blessed my life, more than I could have imagined. What you meant for evil, God meant it for my good. Thank you for letting the Lord use you.

Best,

Aisha

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Today I was reflecting, and I realized it has been a long time.

It has been a long time since I picked up the computer, and placed my fingers on the keys,and wrote from my heart.

So many justifiable things have gotten in the way. Life. Family. Work. The list could go on and on. But I am learning as I go through life that writing, for me is like therapy. It is a rare opportunity to share the hidden parts of my heart. To pour out, what I believe God may be sharing with me, and hope that it blesses you. So today as I reflected I not only realized the length of time that it has been since I blogged, but it has been a long time since I saw myself, or my life in a negative light.

In a moment of transparency, I will share, that for many years I struggled to think about myself, the way God thinks about me.

It was a daily fight to the death to look at myself and see what he sees. Now, please do not get me wrong, I still have my fleeting moments. Long days, tough assignments, and life in general can sometimes attempt to rain down a monsoon of negativity. However, I remember a time and a day, where the monsoon would have become my comfort zone. I can remember the day that I would have held fast to every negative thought. I would have added to this tirade of negativity by reminding myself of all that I was not (or thought I was not) instead of all that I was, am and was destined to be.  By living in that place, I was a walking, ticking time bomb. My stinking thinking, was the undercurrent that was secretly at work within me, running my life. This deeply buried, negative thought life, pushed me to constantly seek validation externally. I was completely incapable of seeing as God saw, thinking like God thought, and therefore impeded from living as God promised I could live.

I was my own worst enemy, short changing myself regularly, by paying the valuable currency of attention to my detrimental thoughts.

Today, I write to you from a different perspective, the perspective of a changed mindset. I remember hearing a question and answer that woke me up from this slumber of negativity. This question was: “What is the one thing that you can change, that if you change it, it will change everything?” The answer is: “Your MIND.” EUREAKA! I’d spent the better part of my life reading and rehearsing, as a man thinketh in his heart, so is he. I’d convinced others that I believed this. But in my gut, I was as unconvinced of this fact as they come. Besides, I’d tricked myself into compartmentalizing my thought life.

Example: Well I think really good thoughts here, so I am ok and so is my thought life.

Reality: NO! Negativity, wrong thinking is a cancer. If it is in one part of your thought life, it will not be long before it spreads, takes hold and completely debilitates you.  

Today, I am happy to report that it has been a long time since I believed the lies that myself and the enemy told me.

It has been a long time since I allowed a relationship, an event, a place, a station in life to make me see myself as a failure.

Today, I am able  to grab these fleeting thoughts and lead them away into captivity under the obedience of Christ, before they take root. I am able to make clear lines of distinction, such as: I may have failed at something, but I AM not a failure.

I am able to view things like failure, loss, and hurt differently. When you change the way you look at things, the way you look at things change. How do we get to this place? We arrive here, through daily mind renewal. Our minds really are a battlefield. We are attacked here first because all decisive action, good, bad or indifferent was first a thought. If we can master mental change first, we can then execute the change outwardly. Spend time in your word daily. Time with God is ALWAYS time well spent.

Reading what he says about you, being alone in his presence and hearing the creator of the Universe tell you: “You are beautiful.”

“I know ALL about you and I love you anyway.” “I am jealous for you.” ” I know the plans I have for you.” ” You are forgiven.” “You are redeemed.” “You are loved.” “No weapon formed against you shall prosper.” ” My promises to you are YES and amen.” “I will be  with you always, even until the end of the world.” “You are  the standard, that I will lift up, when the enemy comes in like a flood.” ” I gave my son for you, because I am mad about you.” “Nothing can separate you from my love.” ” You are more than a conqueror, everything a conqueror is, you are MORE than that!”

YOWZERS! Talk about a spiritual B12 shot, He infuses you with His thoughts concerning you, and when we meditate in this place, there is NO room for self condemnation, low self-esteem or negative self-talk. Commit to yourself to begin changing your life today, by finding out and embracing what God says about you, internalizing those thoughts/promises, confessing those things over yourself and walking in the victory that will abound.

Philippians 4:8  MSG 8-9 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Peace & Blessings

I love you


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