Lifespeaks

You know who they are. They are the ones who lurk in the corners of your conversation and scoff at your dreams. You know the type that project their inability to make something happen onto you, and your vision. The modern day term for them is ‘haters’, back in the day they called them ‘naysayers’ , but you get the my drift.

These people are the dream killers, destiny thieves and glass half- emptiers of the world. ( yes, I made that up) It seems as though they were born for no other reason than to oppose your success and make idle talk of your innovation. I know you know the type, the ones that are always complaining about the doers who are busy doing while assaulting your ears, time and patience with a litany of  excuses for why they can’t do. Yet, everything you do in their eyes is wrong and doomed to a life of undeniable failure.

We hate to see them coming. We make full-on hard stops that careen into U-turns in the middle of office corridors to get away from them. We see their number dance onto our caller ID and its as if we hear an alarm ringing to warn us of the impending negativity on the other end of the line. Nope, not today–to voicemail you go Deb, because after all you’re a downer.

Trust and believe, I know your plight. I, too, loathe the pigpen cloud of negativity that follows this breed. However, I think they get a bad rap.

Yes, I said it. The Negative Nancy’s of the world get an extremely bad rap–you see, without them there’d be no negative with your positive. No yang to your yin.

As despicable as their demeanors can appear, their demeanor drives us. I don’t know about you, but the fastest way to watch me accomplish a task and then some is to doubt my ability to do it. Throw some shade my way and I am all over it and fast. Am I saying I need negativity before I’ll make a move, of course not.

What I am asserting is this, negativity presented to the right person is nothing more than much needed fuel to the fire. So to all the naysayers, doubters, heartbreakers and the like, this is for you….

Thank you for believing in my dreams and my visions enough to attempt to dismantle them with your negative energy. I must be on to something grand if all you can do is proclaim all the reasons why it cannot work. Thank you, naysayer, for expending the energy I would have used to try and talk myself out of making this huge leap of faith! Now I can use that energy to drive aggressively toward my goal, mainly because, I know I can and secondarily to prove you wrong.

Naysayer, I appreciate your attention to detail as you shared with the masses, all the ways that I could and would fail. It will make victory all the more sweeter when I come out on top. Thank you for whispering, gossiping, and nitpicking and while I wish for your own sakes, that you’d find another hobby–I’m glad you’re here.

You are far more important to the ascent of my career and my positioning for purpose than I could have ever realized. I am grateful for your inability to move past my past because every time you held it over my head, I was reminded that I no longer live there. Cheers to you, oh beautiful naysayer, for every time you attempted to intercept my purpose with some great fear of failure or apprehension of success, it simply made me see that I am on the path to something significant and life changing!

Thank you for being you and serving your purpose. Without you I’d never know what it is to pull a knife from my back and be healed and compelled to forgive the attempted butcher of my promise, because you know not what you do.

See, without you, I don’t think I’d have this strong of a prayer life. Some of your words, gestures and thoughts were so cruel they knocked me to my knees. Sure, that is exactly what you’d hoped to accomplish, but you had no idea that I’d be meeting Abba there. In in our meeting he dried my tears, gave me direction and lavished me with compassion, for you.

I truly thank you with my whole being, for shattering my dreams, annihilating my hopes and wasting the contents of my heart like cheap perfume, when I least expected it. It is because of you, that I learned how resilient I am and how much more effective love is when it comes from a heart that was broken and allowed itself to experience the process of being fully healed.

You blessed my life, more than I could have imagined. What you meant for evil, God meant it for my good. Thank you for letting the Lord use you.

Best,

Aisha

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Today I was reflecting, and I realized it has been a long time.

It has been a long time since I picked up the computer, and placed my fingers on the keys,and wrote from my heart.

So many justifiable things have gotten in the way. Life. Family. Work. The list could go on and on. But I am learning as I go through life that writing, for me is like therapy. It is a rare opportunity to share the hidden parts of my heart. To pour out, what I believe God may be sharing with me, and hope that it blesses you. So today as I reflected I not only realized the length of time that it has been since I blogged, but it has been a long time since I saw myself, or my life in a negative light.

In a moment of transparency, I will share, that for many years I struggled to think about myself, the way God thinks about me.

It was a daily fight to the death to look at myself and see what he sees. Now, please do not get me wrong, I still have my fleeting moments. Long days, tough assignments, and life in general can sometimes attempt to rain down a monsoon of negativity. However, I remember a time and a day, where the monsoon would have become my comfort zone. I can remember the day that I would have held fast to every negative thought. I would have added to this tirade of negativity by reminding myself of all that I was not (or thought I was not) instead of all that I was, am and was destined to be.  By living in that place, I was a walking, ticking time bomb. My stinking thinking, was the undercurrent that was secretly at work within me, running my life. This deeply buried, negative thought life, pushed me to constantly seek validation externally. I was completely incapable of seeing as God saw, thinking like God thought, and therefore impeded from living as God promised I could live.

I was my own worst enemy, short changing myself regularly, by paying the valuable currency of attention to my detrimental thoughts.

Today, I write to you from a different perspective, the perspective of a changed mindset. I remember hearing a question and answer that woke me up from this slumber of negativity. This question was: “What is the one thing that you can change, that if you change it, it will change everything?” The answer is: “Your MIND.” EUREAKA! I’d spent the better part of my life reading and rehearsing, as a man thinketh in his heart, so is he. I’d convinced others that I believed this. But in my gut, I was as unconvinced of this fact as they come. Besides, I’d tricked myself into compartmentalizing my thought life.

Example: Well I think really good thoughts here, so I am ok and so is my thought life.

Reality: NO! Negativity, wrong thinking is a cancer. If it is in one part of your thought life, it will not be long before it spreads, takes hold and completely debilitates you.  

Today, I am happy to report that it has been a long time since I believed the lies that myself and the enemy told me.

It has been a long time since I allowed a relationship, an event, a place, a station in life to make me see myself as a failure.

Today, I am able  to grab these fleeting thoughts and lead them away into captivity under the obedience of Christ, before they take root. I am able to make clear lines of distinction, such as: I may have failed at something, but I AM not a failure.

I am able to view things like failure, loss, and hurt differently. When you change the way you look at things, the way you look at things change. How do we get to this place? We arrive here, through daily mind renewal. Our minds really are a battlefield. We are attacked here first because all decisive action, good, bad or indifferent was first a thought. If we can master mental change first, we can then execute the change outwardly. Spend time in your word daily. Time with God is ALWAYS time well spent.

Reading what he says about you, being alone in his presence and hearing the creator of the Universe tell you: “You are beautiful.”

“I know ALL about you and I love you anyway.” “I am jealous for you.” ” I know the plans I have for you.” ” You are forgiven.” “You are redeemed.” “You are loved.” “No weapon formed against you shall prosper.” ” My promises to you are YES and amen.” “I will be  with you always, even until the end of the world.” “You are  the standard, that I will lift up, when the enemy comes in like a flood.” ” I gave my son for you, because I am mad about you.” “Nothing can separate you from my love.” ” You are more than a conqueror, everything a conqueror is, you are MORE than that!”

YOWZERS! Talk about a spiritual B12 shot, He infuses you with His thoughts concerning you, and when we meditate in this place, there is NO room for self condemnation, low self-esteem or negative self-talk. Commit to yourself to begin changing your life today, by finding out and embracing what God says about you, internalizing those thoughts/promises, confessing those things over yourself and walking in the victory that will abound.

Philippians 4:8  MSG 8-9 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Peace & Blessings

I love you

Consistently Constant

Famously Faithful

There is no one like Him

He is unable to abandon us and loves without lackluster advances

He is amazingly audacious in the tenacity with which He pursues us, His bride

Extremely careful never to deal with us as a concubine, though we have often dismissed him as our personal prostitute;rendering our praise and worship as a form of payment for his performance in our lives

Yet, He remains cataclysmically committed to us,the love of His life

Pressing into us with avengence and vanquishing the ghosts of our past while ushering us into the future He has predestined us for long before he breathed life into our nostrils

He is magnificently mad about us and desires our fellowship.

Oh! To tell us his secrets, to satiate our souls with the fullness of his revelation for our lives

He is gargantuan in proportion to our problems, circumstances and situations

In one breath he sends a wind of change to render a great upheaval to Satans’ plan and change the course and direction that we have set our lives upon

Somehow, someway we in our finite minds think we can outthink and strategize him, so we often attempt to do life solo;this is a lie that we have laced into our souls

Apart from him life does not exist, but in him life is found and found in abundance

In him every weapon loses its ability to prosper against us and we are made new by believing on Calvarys’ work

Remarkable rest is available in He who enables us to live move and be;There is absolutely no one, no where like him

He is the most luxurious of lovers, and his passion for me is perfected in his perversion free pursuit of my heart

He seeks to capture me at my core and remake me from the inside out, sans the ulterior motives

He is the game changer and the great upset to the kingdom of hell and its designs on my life

Purity permeates from him and His righteousness renews us daily

He is the coldest out here, unique in his ability to display human compassion and unchanging diety

Yaweh-breath to my weary body.

Yaweh-Life to my dry brittle bones

Yaweh-Fearlessness to my fear

I could write of your love forever

Your mercy enthralls me and I am endeared to you the more by your grace

Your ferocious fight for me endues me with power to run with endurance the race that is set before me

You are the One who causes mountains to shake, clouds to billow,seas to rage, and winds to roar;  but you still are gentle enough to woo me back to your arms when I have wandered too far

You touch me and the very fragility of my nature is revealed

You are so far beyond amazing-but incomparable and even that is an understatement

You blow me away with your awesomeness and envelope me with your tenderness

A moment in your presence is better than a thousand moments in the company of the flyest man alive

Your presence never leaves me wanting, and I am humbled and awestruck by your love for me

-Selah

 

English: Spanish Royal Crown

English: Spanish Royal Crown (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

  Tonight, I have no lengthy, targeted post to hit you with. While I am preparing a couple of those to share with you all, and will be posting them soon-tonight I am simply sharing  from my heart while positioned in an awestruck state of being. You see I am overwhelmingly overwhelmed by God, and the work he is doing all around us.

But tonight I am being a bit selfish and taking a moment out to pause and extend to him my grateful heart for what he is performing in my life. You see, I have been “saved” a while now. I have been walking with God for a good, long  while and even in my failures, periods of falling away and misgivings I considered myself to know him pretty well. In my head I had a solid relationship with him because I did my level best to do the right things. I tried my hardest to keep myself straight and when I didn’t I knew what to do to get back in his good graces.

Many times,I’d refer to him within myself and to others as my Everything. However while with my breath I crowned him King, in my actions I dethroned him. GASP! Yes, I heard the collective grasp of my readership. You read it right, I dethroned him in my actions. How?

I am glad you asked. I dethroned him, by refusing to seek the very counsel of he who made everything, knows everything and is everything. I failed to seek everything, about, well, everything. In doing so I rendered him of no effect in my life. I walked alongside the blessing, goodness and mercy trailed me and I kept company with his favor-but I limited his ability to show himself strong in my life.

Is it possible to walk closely to someone and still not be connected with them?

Ask the troubled married couple, or the strained parents and their teenage children. it is indeed possible to walk closely with someone and fail to know them intimately;because you either never took the time to get intimate or at one point became intimate and stopped that process. When this occurs the relationship becomes stagnant and you go from a thriving relationship, to simply existing.

Over the last ten months I have been afforded the opportunity to experience a rebirth of sorts. The holy spirit has infiltrated my life in a way that he has not before. This new-found fellowship is not because he wasn’t there before, no, he has been walking with me all along. This level of fellowship is new to me, because while he was always there-I had not given him access to every room of my heart. I had not yielded to him the keys to each corridor of my mind. You see, he had not been invited to the secret caverns, and dusty dungeons of my soul. The places where I housed my unmet needs, unhealed hurts,and deferred hope.

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.love is where the heart be (Photo credit: ˙·٠•● Peter Nguyen)

This is where I threw my broken heart from being mistreated and handled incorrectly and inappropriately as a young girl. This is where I locked away the pain of being divorced and the doubt that knocked at my door daily just to tell me “There is no one out there for you”, “You are damaged and God forgot you.” These are the hiding places for my memorials to what was, what should have been and would have been if I had just…!

These places had not been revealed to the Holy Ghost because I was ashamed to allow him in, and truth be told I liked the familiarity of some of those rooms, caverns and corridors. They represented something I knew, when the world was pulverizing me with unknowns. Therefore they presented pseudo hiding places and dangerous safe zones. While I was smiling and giving life my all I was a bleeding train wreck, waiting to happen. The worst part was, I had no idea. The conversation I had with my mind said I was free. Then my mind told my heart I was delivered, and so my heart spoke to my soul and it breathed an enormous sigh of relief and whispered to the people under the stairs of my spirit; “Whew, that was close!” “We are safe.”

Those things took root and erected strongholds that navigated the ship of my life for years. Long story short, Jesus, the Holy Spirit was in the living room of my heart and we were having a good old-time. I served him, he received me, We talked and chatted, but I never gave him the tour-because it was a mess. And everybody knows when company comes over, you don’t take them around your spot unless it is spotless.

I had the eternal stain remover inside my heart, but would not let him look around and do his job. What a travesty! I realize I started this blog by saying it wouldn’t be lengthy, but the Holy spirit had other plans. Today I am happy to say that I can yield to those plans as he changes them. Why, because I have not only invited him in, but I have given him full access within me. The holy spirit is a gentleman. While he is a powerful force to be reckoned with-He will not force himself upon you. You must invite him in. Think for a minute, do you want  to force your friendship on others? OR do you want them to choose it?

Scripture challenges us in Duet 30:19 by saying this:

“I’m calling heaven and earth to give witness against you this day.I am offering the choice of life OR death. You can choose either blessings or curses. But I want you to choose life. ”

Powerful! The same rebirth I have experienced you can experience as well by choosing Life, by choosing to let him in your heart and show him around. I finally said holy ghost here it is, all of it. In that corner over there, is bitterness. Oh and Jesus, in the basement  of my heart way back in the junk room is immorality. And since I am showing you around, under my bed is defeat, in my closet is regret and up on the shelves over there, that is  unforgiveness of myself. After I let him in and showed him around and gave him complete reign, he became welcome and began to work. I have never known this kind of freedom, mercy,grace and favor-because I’d never embraced it like this before. I was my own worst enemy.

If you find yourself anywhere in the words that you read tonight, I encourage you to stop hiding and let him in. Yield to him every access, give him the key to every door and allow him to do what only He can do. I promise you, you will not regret it.

Blessings to you all!

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LED digital clock radio with analog AM/FM radio tuning (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Five O’Clock in the morning, and the alarm is blaring. It is so hard to believe how amazingly fast the day dawns. I promise you it feels as though my head just hit the pillow a few moments ago. As I struggle to awaken from my fog, I lazily reach my hand from under the warm covers and smack the snooze button on my alarm clock. Why, do I do this to myself every morning?, I ask myself as I drift back off into the remnants of a sweet slumber. Suddenly I realize that it is a few snooze buttons later, and I am running behind the eight ball. I hurl myself out of bed and dash into my morning routine. Chaos ensues as I begin my morning regimen of  waking my daughter, getting my shower, tidying up my home etc..As we move through our home like greased lightning, trying to catch the pieces of the day that have absconded from us, we begin to get dressed. My daughter while slow to start on waking up, never disappoints with the getting dressed part. She is ready faster than a speeding bullet as she is eleven and really doesn’t care about fashion the way her mother does! LOL!

Finally, I am all dressed and ready to roll. I reach for the keys, grab my bag, and bark to my daughter that she should have had everything together when I issued my 3rd decree to her that  “I would be ready to walk out the door in five minutes.” 🙂

Just as I prepare to take a step out of the door, I hear a still small voice say, “You are not dressed.” Imagine the look on my face, because I am dressed. Pumps, slacks, cute top, great jacket, hair done, earrings-yup I am good and ready to take on the day.”Come On!” I crab out to my daughter, “Let’s move!”

Once again,I hear it “You are not dressed.” I take a deep breath, do one last check to make sure I have everything.

While waiting for my mini-me to gather her items I pull up the You Version bible on my phone, slide across to the scripture of the day and read the following:

Colossians 3:10-14

The Message (MSG)

9-11 Don’t lie to one another. You’re done with that old life. It’s like a filthy set of ill-fitting clothes you’ve stripped off and put in the fire. Now you’re dressed in a new wardrobe. Every item of your new way of life is custom-made by the Creator, with his label on it. All the old fashions are now obsolete. Words like Jewish and non-Jewish, religious and irreligious, insider and outsider, uncivilized and uncouth, slave and free, mean nothing. From now on everyone is defined by Christ, everyone is included in Christ.

12-14 So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It’s your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

Once I read that, I felt like I’d been chin-checked into reality. I was dressed to the nines or so I thought, but not really. You see to God, my ensemble was completely incomplete as I had failed to put on LOVE.  I had not paused to pray, acknowledge God for a new day, and I certainly was not walking in his love at this moment. I was hurried in my movements,crotchety in demeanor and short in my speech. I’d failed to clothe myself in this most important piece of designer fashion called LOVE. Love is so important to God, so much so that he says those of us who operate without it;though we prophesy and sing we are as tinkering symbols if we do not have LOVE. WOW! I’d spent the majority of my morning tinkering away. I was operating without my basic all-purpose garment, that I am to NEVER be without.

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Love heart uidaodjsdsew (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

When one is dressed up in LOVE, he/she is well dressed for all types of weather conditions visited upon us by life. LOVE is a raincoat for the storm of uncertainty, providing covering for you and those around you when you are not sure where life is taking you. LOVE is a parka, against the blustery winds of offense that seek to blow us out of position with God and into the bondage of unforgiveness.When properly dressed in the LOVE of God we handle others as well as ourselves with care. We cover multitudes of sin, with forgiveness. We throw off telling lies ( and believing them) for the speaking and believing truth. We don’t have too much time to hold grudges, why? Because we realize that could be us, or maybe at some point was us exacting offense and hurt in someone elses life. Someone adorned in love becomes difficult for the enemy to handle, as none of his darts of pain,affliction,bitterness and the like stick to a person who has love as their garment. So tomorrow morning when we rise to greet the day, let us start by acknowledging God, thanking him for a new day and putting on his love. It is a staple piece, an essential all-purpose garment! Dress up in love today and everyday y’all. Blessings

Can These Dry Bones Live?-Ezkiel 37

This question is asked of Ezekiel by God in the valley of Dry Bones. In this account God ushered Ezekiel to the middle of a dry place. The MSG translation says “God Grabbed me. God’s spirit took me up and set me down in the middle of an open plain strewn with bones.” The scripture then goes on to say that God led him around in that place, that dry place with lifeless bones.

After grabbing him up, sitting him down in the middle of that place and leading him around-God poses the question: “Can these dry bones live?”

Now I am no biblical scholar, as I sat here writing this I googled a commentary, pulled out the concordance in an attempt to really exegesis the text; and make my first blog really great providing you with historical context,etc..

Then I was reminded that I am to share God Inspired words from a changed heart, so here we go:

After being grabbed by God, sat in the middle of dry bones and led around the place of dry bones. God ask him, can these Dry Bones live?

Ezekiels’ response: “Master God,only you know that.” I believe Ezekiel may have been saying God this one is on you. You know better than I do.

God’s response back to him: “Prophesy over these bones!” Translation, I know what I am doing-but you have to speak what I am doing over the dry place(s) . 

Question: How many times in our lives have we been in a dry place?

Next Question: How many times have we been in a dry place and we become just as dry as the place itself-because we refuse to obey God regarding our dry place. ( I have been there and have the T-Shirt, Souvenir Mug and Commemorative Key Chain)

Finances may be low, or that prayer request we have on the alter seems to have fallen on deaf ears. Perhaps it is a marriage that is on the rocks, or a relationship that ended (because it needed too) after we gave all we had to try and make it work and now we, ourselves feel dry,empty,void of life. Whatever that dry place is, we are doing our best to muddle through it daily usually praying to God that we can be magically transported out of the dry place.

However I am learning that it is in these dry and sometimes barren places that God will pull an Ezekiel on us and grab us up, sit us right in the middle of the dryness and lead us around in it.

Then ask us, Can you trust me in your finances? ( can these dry bones live?) Do you trust me to restore your marriage? ( Can these dry bones live?) Do you believe that I am in control of your life and that your life is NOT over because that relationship is? Do you believe I have something better for you? ( Can these dry bones live?)

We answer: God, you know. And God says to us essentially, “Indeed I know, but you have to speak to it.” By telling Ezekiel to prophesy to the dry bones he was saying to him, say what I say over these bones.

When we are in a dry place, is where God can do his best creating.

In Ezekiel the text goes on to say that God told him what to say to the bones and Ezekiel prophesied to the bones, just as God said. What has God told us to do/say to our dry bones and we have yet to move? Where has God given instruction and yet we sit idle? Where has God promised life, and we are having a “Woe is me party” over our mess and a funeral procession for the rest of our lives. All because we refuse to speak to the dry bones.

The text tells us that Ezekiel spoke to the dry bones, just as God said and then there was a sound! Generally when it is dry, it is also eerily silent. The moment we move in obedience to God, the situation, the dry bones begin to change. Ezekiel heard movement before the bones begin coming together, with sinews and muscles, then skin! He did what God said and God begin to move instantly. He heard a sound, a rustling first and then watched the promise come together right before his eyes.

As a wrap this mornings entry, I say to you, be encouraged to seek him for direction and then do what He says to you. Do not look at the wastelands of life as your burial place. From today on see lifes’ wastelands as your birthing place.  

Can these Dry Bones Live? I say YES!

How about you?

 

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